It’s been a long day, it’s late, and I’m beyond exhausted.  I’ve stayed up late enough to “dream feed” my baby boy.  I carefully scoop him up out of his crib and put him to my breast while I take my seat in the rocker.  He slowly suckles in sleepy comfort with his hand spread out on my chest before I feel the familiar tingle and hear him swallowing in big gulps.  Immediately, all my thoughts of bed are replaced with gratitude.  Thank you, Lord, for this precious gift; for all of the blessings in my life.  I am so humbled to have so much when I am so undeserving.

The turkey has officially applied for his first passport.  In just a few weeks, he’ll be able to go anywhere on the globe.  Time to start planning a trip!

despite all my efforts, i’m down another 3.5 pounds in the last two weeks. under normal circumstances, i’d be jumping for joy over that but not now. i think that’s been the biggest surprise since childbirth. i can’t believe how hard it has been for me to maintain weight.  i lost the pregnancy weight almost immediately and then just kept on losing.  it seemed pretty cool at first until i noticed that it seemed to affect my milk supply as well.  so i’ve been working like crazy for ten months to keep the weight steady.  the few times i’ve tried to start an exercise routine again, i’ve had to give it up pretty quickly because my weight just dropped.  this recent weight loss is perplexing because we were on vacation, eating out and stuffing faces.  and i’ve been eating nonstop since we’ve been back home.  it just doesn’t seem to matter how many heaping spoonfuls of cookie dough i glut myself on (i know; my problem is every woman’s dream).  the only thing i can think of is that i recently increased my thyroid dosage but that never benefited my weight before.  on the bright side, if i ever balloon up and need to lose weight in the future, i’ll just start breastfeeding someone 🙂