Archive for August, 2010
2010
16
Aug
20:52
if you have nothing nice to say…
i guess i learned that lesson and so i’ve been silent. well, that’s not entirely accurate. thanks to fabulous friends, there is always some fun lurking around the corner so i should have nice things to rant but, at the end of the day, i always end up back in my head and i just can’t rant from there. i’ve been living in a dark place for close to a year now. i pray daily but can’t seem to find the right steps out. i feel despondent… and occasionally apathetic, which is really frightening. mostly, i feel angry with myself because i truly thought that i had it all figured out and was prepared. i feel like a fool. like a failure. i pray for the strength to keep hope alive.