i don’t know where i come up with my dreams sometimes. it’s never really that they are that outlandish – usually they’re very realistic – but the contents can be astounding. last night i dreamt that three of my coworkers died within a week. one of them being my very dear friend who i have been so concerned about while he is fighting cancer. in my dream, i even lamented about how i had been so worried about him beating the cancer and he died from this stupidly unrelated cause (the cause was linked for all three but i’m not even going to get into it because it was so stupid). one of the other guys was the one who got new lungs two and a half years ago. i cried for days walking around the office, packing up their stuff for their widows to pick up. when i woke up, my pillow and face were drenched in tears. i spent the rest of the morning going in and out of the dream and it has left me emotionally drained this morning.
he has a habit of ruining surprises. i’ve all but given up on giving him gifts because anytime i get a gift idea for him, he goes out and gets it for himself before i have a chance to give the gift. it’s frustrating. and i’m not a good gift idea-er so it’s hard enough to come up with something that i think he’ll actually like. i’ve always done whatever i could to make a big deal about his birthday but this year he’s seemed really down about it (and we’ve been crazy busy) so i didn’t really do anything. so this morning he had a board meeting for the condo association and it was the perfect opportunity for me to slip out real quick and get a birthday cake (which he’ll probably gripe about anyhow because it’s not good for you) and card. i made it to the store and back before him. i walked in the door and shouted out to him to make sure he wasn’t already home and got no response. i opened the fridge to hide the cake and he walks in the door. jerk. i yelled at him and told him i wasn’t talking to him anymore. so much for surprises.
(the earbuds are in because he got a family singing call at the same time i was singing to him)
even if
YOU don’t think it’s a special day,
I do. i love you and am so proud to celebrate another year of you!!! yay for being
the answer!
last night was a well-deserved rest night. we napped a bit after work and then moved out to the couch to hold it down and watch tv. it’s still stormy today, although i haven’t hear about any tornado warnings around us this morning so that’s a plus. my hubby is NOT getting sick. i still feel wiped out from the weekend (most likely the complete lack of sleep saturday night combined with a very full day sunday). i wish i could get motivated like my cousin. i’m so impressed by her training for a marathon. enough nattering for now?
it was a busy weekend packed full of family visiting. we got up there friday night at a decent enough time to visit with MIL a bit. saturday we had our family get-together with gma h in the nursing home. it wasn’t a great turn out, less than fifteen when we usually have over sixty, but there was good conversation. it was only the second time that gma has ever not known hubby. she can’t even remember any of her old stories anymore, which is sad. i guess she’s still doing alright for being nearly ninety-eight years old but it just almost seems like she’s already gone. she’s such a wonderful woman.
we left that nursing home and went to another to see hubby’s ex-grandmother-in-law. she was perfectly fine when we last saw her a couple of months ago but it seems that she has started to lose her mind since then. she didn’t know me and assumed that hubby had just gotten remarried. she was very proud to meet me and was happy to call me one of her own. i’m glad that after a couple of years of visiting her, i still make a positive first impression. she didn’t know she was in a nursing home, thought she was in the hospital and getting ready to go home. after leaving, hubby and i talked about how heartbreaking it must be to lose your mind. we are hopeful that they don’t know that it’s happening. we went from there to hubby’s ex-in-laws and went to dinner and back to their house to see a slide show from their recent 50
th anniversary party. we’ve always had nice visits with them but this one seemed much more relaxed and personable than before. i guess because we were always there primarily to visit granny a, they didn’t feel as relaxed. who knows. it was a pleasant evening but, as always, i left saddened by the fact that i have a better relationship with my husband’s ex-in-laws than with my own mother. his ex-MIL hugs me and tells me she loves me; mine told me two years ago that she didn’t want to see me or talk to me anymore. such is life, eh? we got back and spent some time with MIL and FIL before going to bed. unfortunately, i was not to get any sleep whatsoever saturday night. that’s when the storms rolled through from fay’s outer bands. generally, a storm doesn’t bother me but the wind was so strong and swirly-sounding i was certain that we were going to be carried away in a tornado. i can take a hurricane any day, i am terrified of a tornado. even after hubby got up in the morning and the weather had calmed down some, i wasn’t able to get a nap in. made for a very long day yesterday. we had our family-gathering at gma m’s house which was bought by a grandchild after her passing this year. it was the first time i had been back there and i was afraid that it was going to be awkward and sad but it wasn’t. the cousins have done a nice job of opening things up and utilizing the house more. it was a good turnout (all but two grandchildren+ showed up) and everyone had a good time. i felt a little bad for cousin’s wife because she was so worried about everything being perfect and everyone being comfortable and after twenty or thirty minutes there, the power went out. it stayed out the whole afternoon (despite the power company’s estimated fix-time that came and went with no power). luckily, it was a breezy afternoon so with the windows open, it was fairly comfortable and the food was being cooked via propane anyhow so no plans were disturbed. we got on the road late in the afternoon and made it home around 22:00 last night. we asked around and fay was a non-event around here (“how was the storm?” “storm? what storm?”). now can we all agree that it’s friday and get on with our three-day weekend?
busy day but it’s almost over. i was happy to talk with my dad and brother today to make sure that they were both fairing well with all the wetness down yonder. looks like fay is on her way here but, unfortunately, we’re not going to be here to welcome her. i’m actually a bit bummed because i think it’s going to be beautiful. weather on the gulf is really a whole different creature. alas, this is the weekend of the annual summer family gatherings up in al. DIL’s side tomorrow, MIL’s side sunday. i’m sure fay will be gone by the time we get back home sunday night.
three laps in the gulf (a gulf lap is considered one full length of our building) and intended laps in the pool but it was inexplicably crowded so we ended up just floating around trading the bodily coating of salt for chlorine. the gulf is wonderful today. it is as calm as the pool and clearer than i’ve ever seen it. our gulf works like this, there are two sand bars and then a deeper “trench” about 150 yards out and then another shallower area again before it turns to deep blue sea. it is so calm and shallow and clear right now that i can actually see through to the bottom of the deep “trench” from our balcony. i’ve never been able to see through that little band of water. it’s lovely. i adore my backyard. it really helps other stuff to melt away. a little. for a short time.
yesterday was a very headachy day. to the point that i had to stop working for a couple hours and lay down so that it would stop the babooming. luckily, it did get more bearable after that. in the afternoon, we dug out our snorkel gear and headed down to the beach to play around a bit. not that we expected there to be anything much to see but we’ve got to get ready for our carribean snorkeling in a month. it was fun and the fins made swimming through the water so much more effortless. i’m all for effortless. anyhow, we had a good time and found some nice, whole shells. we also went to the pool and swam some laps. i think we managed ten – not great but something. this morning, i’m completely down about work. i wish i had more options. it’s such a shame that i’ve gotten so spoiled so young (been working from home pretty much since i was nineteen, don’t know if i could go back to a true desk job). at least i’m not getting dumped on (outside of work) too.
hubby and i went down to the beach and swam in the gulf for lunch. we did about four laps the length of our building. i’m estimating that was not quite 1,000 feet of swimming. i thought i was going to die. we then went up to the pool to rinse the salt off and swam a couple laps of it. hey, at least we did something, right?
my cousin left yesterday but we had a great weekend. sunday’s fun swimming and ‘yakking in the gulf in the morning. hubby and i paddled about a mile and a half which doesn’t sound like much but i was very proud of myself and my arms were exhausted by the time we got back. not to mention that my hands have blisters all over them from gripping the paddle. after a morning of watery fun, we grabbed some lunch and rested a bit before heading to our favorite shopping plaza to walk around in the way too hot sun. after our lap around there, we came back to the air conditioning for a little more relaxing before dinner. my cousin and i played a partial game of scrabble. i was smashing her until she managed a 92 point play and then we went back and forth for a bit. we never finished the game because hunger got the best of us. they were wanting seafood. apparently most people feel that it’s unnatural to be at the beach and not eat seafood. guess i’m just a weirdo. since we don’t go out to eat much, we couldn’t really reccommend a seafood place off the bat. we did mention a place that we keep hearing is great but we’ve not been. that’s where we went. i’m very pleased that my cousin, who is totally a foodie, could not stop raving about the food. we now have a seafood place to take people to. it was actually a nice place too. looks like such a hole-in-the-wall from the road. after dinner, we came back for more beach fun. my cousin swam by herself while me and the boys hung out on the beach. when it got dark, the crabbing commenced. hubby and my cousin were hunting the water crabs while cousin-n-law and i hunted beach crabs. i’m sure she’ll have pix up at some point on her blog. after crabbing, there was pre-bedtime wii fun. we really had a great time all weekend. i’m so glad they came to visit! after they left yesterday morning, things got way busy around here. work exploded, it was messy. last night was a bunch of being lazy. who knows what’s on tap for tonight.
we’ve been having a great time with my cousin and cousin-n-law! yesterday, they entertained themselves about town while we worked and then we all went out kayaking when we got off. apparently, i tried to kill my cousin. i’m such a failure. such is life. after the harrowing experience, we relaxed with dinner, wine, and olympics. we went to bed earlier last night than i have all week. good thing the swimming and gymnastics are wrapping up. this morning, i woke up to news about a potential hurricane heading our way. makes sense. as my cousin was packing to come up here, she assured me that her visit would bring a hurricane our way. she’s good to her word, most of the time. i’m also fully expecting her to flood my house. after a yummy breakfast – i love having a good breakfast on the weekends – we headed to seaside, where the truman show was filmed. it was a very pretty town. we walked around for a couple of hours, consumed some tasty gelatos, and then started back toward home. we stopped along the way at a similarly planned community (actually, quite similar since it was developed by the same persons who developed seaside fourteen years earlier), rosemary beach. some friends of ours recently moved there and have been trying to talk us into following so we went into the realty office and were able to go into a few condos and a house there. i doubt we’ll be moving that way but it was fun to look. the architecture in these towns was amazing but i really wasn’t all that keen on the insides. i’ve always been that way. i like the exterior look of historic homes but i really need a modern interior. it’s just how i roll. we made a lap around that town and then headed home. my cousin was jonesing to get back on the proverbial horse. luckily the water was far calmer today (yellow flag as opposed to double red) and her and i had a very nice paddle in the ‘yaks. we then went out and swam around a bit while my hubby paddled some. there was an extraordinarily large (no joking, this was the biggest i’ve ever seen!) school of fish out there that we played around with and my cousin managed to get a nice fish pedicure out of them. it was wonderful water time. there was some talk of trying to get together with mrs who but plans fell through so we went from the gulf to the pool/hot tub. we then came back up for olympics and dinner. there will likely be rockband (hubby is really pushing the rockband) and/or scrabble in our future tonight.
and they were awake inexplicably early for vacationers. if i didn’t have to work, there’s no way i’d be up that early. weirdos. they made a quick attempt at getting online but it didn’t work right away so they gave up and headed down to the beach. as well they should. early morning and evening-night are the best times for enjoying the beach, imo. i really wish that i had been able to get today off so that i could enjoy spending time with my cousin and cousin-in-law instead of sitting here working and making them play by themselves (yeh, i know that they are absolutely miserable having to spend time alone together on the beach at the gulf of mexico!). is it five yet???
today is nine years since our first not-a-date. i’m so happy he stole my phone number off of his roommate’s caller id and asked me to hang out with him – you know, since he was new in town and didn’t know anyone. we have been nearly inseparable since then and it has been a truly happy nine years.
(and might i just say how much i miss being that flippin’ small?!)
yay! my cousin is coming to see me tonight!!! i hope the weather is cooperative this weekend. it’s unfortunate that the water is not very pretty right now. the very impressive storms that have come through the last few days have really mucked things up. at some point today i need to make a shopping list so that we can go right after work to get some groceries for the weekend. i’m at a loss because my cousin and cousin-in-law are gourmet cooks and i am so not. makes me wonder what i’ve fed them every other time they’ve come to visit us. hmm. in other news, the olympics are keeping me up way too late this week. i am guessing that is contributing to my migraines. it’s strange because i’ve never been an olympic watcher. really, i probably watched more last weekend than i had in my whole life. but i’ve really been enjoying it this week. not sure if i’ll really be into anything after the swimming and gymnastics are done but we’ll see. i’ve tried to get into the volleyball but i apparently have too short an attention span for that. it would be better for my head if my olympic viewing is over this weekend and i can go back to a decent bedtime next week.
