after waking up to more spotting this morning, I went ahead and called the dr and they had me come in for my initial exam a week early.  it was a very different experience from the first time around when we were so excited to see our little blueberry and were surprised with a humanoid lemon.  this time, I went in with trepidation, held my breath, and just prayed that there would be a heartbeat.  praise the Lord, there was!  our sequel looks okay for now!  i’m afraid i’m going to worry throughout this whole pregnancy but it was so wonderful to see that little heart pumping (130 bpm).  we saw one of the midwives today since they were squeezing us in and she was very reassuring and easy to deal with.  i still think i’d rather go back to my dr since he’s more familiar with my history but it’s nice to know that the not-so-personable midwife we saw once before was not the standard.

I had some spotting today. I don’t remember having any spotting with the turkey. Please, Lord, let my baby be okay.

today has been one of those oh-God-if-only-I-could-puke-surely-i’d-feel-better kind of days.  i’m under-hydrated because water makes me nauseous.  I had plenty of bad spells with the turkey but they were short waves that quickly passed.  I don’t remember ever having a full day of it.  and then I almost passed out in the shower (mental note: must clean shower seat so that I can sit when I need a breather).  today has been downright awful.  which is disconcerting since this is just the beginning of the morning sickness period.

and let the morning sickness begin.

14 Jan 2016

I was watching my beautiful little boy playing tonight.  and then I watched him give his daddy hugs and kisses and my heart painfully swelled with love and I caught myself thinking the unthinkable… will I ever be able to love this new little baby as much I love the turkey?  and then it occurred to me that this is truly going to be the proof that God exists.  over the coming months, God is going to work the incredible miracle of multiplying our love in ways that we can’t even comprehend now.  I can’t wait to be shown the depths of God’s love.

here we go again!!!

8 Jan 2016

Queesiness… Check
Sinus congestion… Check
Chest acne… Check

I don’t know if we’re really ready for this but away we go!!!

I should have gotten my period yesterday.  instead, I had some very light spotting.  last month my period was five days late with spotting on the fourth day.