Archive for the ‘Nuthin’ Special’ Category

2016
14
Dec
20:15

Feeling the fail

   Posted by: arcanai

Because the turkey is such a good kid, I have a tendency to the sight of the fact that he’s still a toddler. There are times when his behavior is not quite exemplary and I end up feeling like a huge failure of a mother. I need to get past this urge to internalize and hold him up to a standard that’s unrealistic. Fact of the matter is that even at his Worst Behavior we are incredibly blessed to have such a great kid.

2016
24
Mar
22:29

Kick me

   Posted by: arcanai

Today was the first day I could feel real kicks and rolls, not just imperceptible flutters. From barely noticeable gas bubbles yesterday to a “kick me” sign on my bladder today. Just in time for out check up tomorrow.

2015
26
Oct
7:52

insomnia, migraine, and hot flashes – oh my!

   Posted by: arcanai

i’ve had terrible insomnia again for the last three weeks.  i’ve tried sleep aids but they really just make it worse when they make me all drowsy and i still can’t sleep.  i think i’ve had two nights of decent sleep (6 or more hours) but the average is probably 2-3.  makes for some really rough days and general malaise.  add to that the massive migraine i’ve been sporting since thursday and the brutal return of hot flashes and night sweats… i’m assuming this means my body/hormones are finally starting to normalize after 21 months of supporting another life.  maybe if i weren’t so bloody tired, with flames all over my skin and explosions behind my right eyeball, i could muster a “yay” for that.

2015
5
Oct
17:51

nectar of the gods

   Posted by: arcanai

today was the turkey’s first taste of peanut butter.  he had it for lunch and no reactions yet so i think we’re good.  not that i expected any problems.  nobody in either of our families has pb alergies and i ate so much of it while i was pregnant, i’m surprised he’s not made of it.  he LOVED it.  he was actually using his bread to mop up the plate (where pb had inevitably gotten stuck when a piece of toast got flipped wrong).  just wait until he discovers the ecstasy of peanut butter/chocolate confections!

2015
27
Sep
21:07

Mother of the year

   Posted by: arcanai

Aka: arcanai and the terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day.
this morning, i allowed my poor little boy to nearly get concussed.  he took no naps whatsoever so we were all grouchy all day.  and then i almost cooked his hand tonight.  i cried and cried at the close call.  tomorrow must be a better day.

2015
2
Aug
21:55

excessive pride and gratitude

   Posted by: arcanai

i am always overwhelmingly proud of my little boy when we’re out and about.  he is so pleasant and well-behaved and we are constantly surrounded by strangers who want to talk/flirt with him.  it makes me feel like we must be doing something right.  i thank God over and over and over for such bountiful blessings.  i am unworthy to be this boy’s mother but he looks at me with his bright blue eyes and lets me know that he wouldn’t have it any other way.

this afternoon, he got tired and cranky shortly before dinner time.  we had already decided to go out for dinner and as i was getting the boy dressed, he had his first full-blown tantrum meltdown.  i’m talking laying on his belly on his bedroom floor crying and flailing his legs and arms tantrum.  we ignored him while we continued to get ready to go out and i picked him up and calmed him just before leaving, not sure that going out was a good idea anymore.  we went to a restaurant we haven’t been to in a while and ended up waiting twenty minutes for a table.   and then it took forty-five minutes to get our food.  of course, this also put him past his bed time so he should have been a complete monster.  nope.  he played, sucked on ice, ate cheerios, and flirted with everyone seated around us.  not once did he grump.  he had no less than three tables full of strangers smiling and talking with him.  when we left, he made friends with people sitting outside waiting for tables.  seriously, his joy is infectious and people are just drawn to him.  it brings tears of pride and gratitude to my eyes every time.

2015
29
Jul
22:31

Do I make you proud?

   Posted by: arcanai

It’s inborn for us to need to make our parents proud.  There are times when the turkey will do something and immediately look to us with an expression of “did I do good? did I make you proud?” we give him praise and he just lights up.  It makes my heart swell.   I hope he always knows just how proud he makes me.

2015
26
Jul
22:43

Late night reflections

   Posted by: arcanai

It’s been a long day, it’s late, and I’m beyond exhausted.  I’ve stayed up late enough to “dream feed” my baby boy.  I carefully scoop him up out of his crib and put him to my breast while I take my seat in the rocker.  He slowly suckles in sleepy comfort with his hand spread out on my chest before I feel the familiar tingle and hear him swallowing in big gulps.  Immediately, all my thoughts of bed are replaced with gratitude.  Thank you, Lord, for this precious gift; for all of the blessings in my life.  I am so humbled to have so much when I am so undeserving.

2015
10
Jul
9:35

what sorcery is this?

   Posted by: arcanai

despite all my efforts, i’m down another 3.5 pounds in the last two weeks. under normal circumstances, i’d be jumping for joy over that but not now. i think that’s been the biggest surprise since childbirth. i can’t believe how hard it has been for me to maintain weight.  i lost the pregnancy weight almost immediately and then just kept on losing.  it seemed pretty cool at first until i noticed that it seemed to affect my milk supply as well.  so i’ve been working like crazy for ten months to keep the weight steady.  the few times i’ve tried to start an exercise routine again, i’ve had to give it up pretty quickly because my weight just dropped.  this recent weight loss is perplexing because we were on vacation, eating out and stuffing faces.  and i’ve been eating nonstop since we’ve been back home.  it just doesn’t seem to matter how many heaping spoonfuls of cookie dough i glut myself on (i know; my problem is every woman’s dream).  the only thing i can think of is that i recently increased my thyroid dosage but that never benefited my weight before.  on the bright side, if i ever balloon up and need to lose weight in the future, i’ll just start breastfeeding someone :-)

2015
25
May
22:37

6th trimester nesting

   Posted by: arcanai

apparently my nesting instinct has finally kicked in.  i spent the weekend on a household rampage.  i rearranged the turkey’s room about three times – still not happy with it but i’m giving it a few days to grow on me or for inspiration to strike on a better arrangement.  i got hubby to hang the artwork that i had created for him.  i went through all of the hand-me-down clothes that we’ve received to pack them into boxes by size.  i started going through and throwing away junk that was standing in the way of our “baby-proofing”.  i’ve done several loads of laundry and i cooked three meals for the week tonight.  color me exhausted.

2015
10
Mar
20:56

Double trouble

   Posted by: arcanai

Finally, at 6.5 months (201 days) old, the turkey has officially doubled his birth weight.  A couple months late but growth is growth and he is such a little chunk these days.  He’s also getting ready to be a load of trouble.  He’s not really crawling around us but he’s rolling over onto his belly and scooting around his crib, reaching through the bars trying to find trouble.  Tonight, he scooted himself over to the corner and was hitting the button on his little light/music aquarium trying to turn it on.  He’s such a little smarty.  I don’t see how but my love and pride and joy for that little boy increase exponentially every day.

2014
16
Oct
23:58

first family camp-out

   Posted by: arcanai

After last night’s post about how well the turkey was doing with his shots, the nonstop vomiting began. For some reason, so far, nothing has bothered me more than vomiting. I guess it’s because my only real responsibility right now is to feed him and make sure he gets enough to eat. When he loses a meal, my heart just breaks for him and I usually end up crying. Last night was far worse than anything we’ve seen yet. The poor thing ended up with dry heaves once. He also started running a fever. We broke out the tylenol at 100.1 degrees. We ended up doing our first family camp-out. I “slept” on the love seat, hubby slept on the sofa, and the turkey slept on the ottoman where we could both reach him. It was a long night.

the family that lays together...

He did much better today. He kept his meals down and even started to get back to his normal appetite by this evening. He was still sporadically howling and super lethargic. The only real awake time he had all day was shower time. I took his bandaids off and washed/massaged the injection sites and he never even flinched. He was fever-free all day until just a bit ago when he spiked to 101.1 and had his first real diarrhea diaper. It’s so hard to see him feeling bad even though he’s staying in great spirits. He smiles through all his diaper changes and laughs and chatters while we’re trying to get tylenol in him. But he’s just not himself and I know he doesn’t feel good. I think he may already be figuring out that he can make us feel bad for him or worry about him to score some living room naps throughout the day.  i just hope that he’s feeling better in the morning when we take him on his first road trip.

tummy naps around momma and daddy are so much better than napping alone in my crib

2014
13
Oct
18:11

preparing for lift-off

   Posted by: arcanai

my dad’s been in the hospital again this weekend.  even though it seems to be the same issues that kept him in the hospital for 2.5 weeks earlier this year – fluid on the lungs, fatigue, shortness of breath – they are calling it congestive heart failure now and that just seems so much more urgent to me.  hubby has been pushing to make a trip to see all of the family before i start working again but i’ve been hesitant to go anywhere without the turkey’s shots, which he gets friday, and i’ve already committed to going back to work next monday.  it just seems too much to deal with figuring out a new schedule while traveling.  this morning, i went ahead and pushed my start date another week at work and rescheduled the shots for wednesday.  that should give him a couple of days for the effects to wear off and then we can hit the road first thing friday.  we’re going to spend the weekend visiting the alabama grandparents and then head to orlando on sunday for some time with my family.  hopefully my dad will be home from the hospital by then so that he can spend some time with his grandbaby.

2014
9
Jul
21:55

bang bang

   Posted by: arcanai

hubby had to leave town yesterday to take all the guest room furniture up to his parents’ house. tonight, sunny and I got together for a nice little girls night out dinner. it was great to get out and just talk and hang out for a while. we talked about her busy business and her volunteer work at a local animal rescue. I told her about my exciting call yesterday where it sounds like I am going to get the opportunity to transition out of my current position, back into a tech writing position that I’ve been chasing for years. we sat at the restaurant and talked for over two hours about all kinds of nonsense. sometimes it’s nice to just get out and catch up with a good friend

2014
6
Feb
22:04

snow!

   Posted by: arcanai

while we had our big ice storm last week, Alabama got a sweet snow storm… something like four inches. I was super jealous and told the family that they needed to hold onto it for a week until we get there. well, they didn’t hold the big snow for me but they did arrange for me to have some falling snow anyhow. it was all kinds of exciting, even if it was just a dusting and quickly gone the next morning.