my first week of being off the pill has been awful.  the hot flashes and night sweats have come back with a vengeance and make me worry again about my chances of conceiving.  since may 2010, i have been on pills with high dose estrogen to try to stave off early menopause.  thus, my very real concerns.  i’m trying, however, not to dwell on such thoughts.  i’m trying to concentrate on getting re-balanced and healthy and thinking happy thoughts for the future.  in the meantime, these hotflashes may very well kill me.  if they get any worse, i will be proof of spontaneous human combustion (poof! there goes another one!).  i also seem to be emotionally unbalanced suddenly.  i tear up at everything i see and hear.  if this is just going off the pill, what the heck will the hormones of pregnancy do to me?