i just shut down my work pc for the last time. i’ll mail it in later this week. i’m astounded at how difficult this has been for me. i’ve been with this company for 15 years. i’ve been working for financial gain for 28 years. i’ve always felt financially independent but now i’ll be contributing nothing to our household income. my entire worth is going to be measured by whether i can make two little boys mind and learn. it’s very scary. in addition to being the lowest pay job i’ve ever had, it’s also the most important. i pray that i don’t fail.